A New Amber

I've discovered a paradox: that when you have a full sex life, you don't have much time to write about it. And I feel badly about that because I have stories upon stories for you all, but no time to write them down. I'll try to do better in the future I promise!

I've also discovered another thing. As you can probably tell from previous posts, I tend to be somewhat submissive, especially with men. And I really never questioned that because I was enjoying myself that way. However I have several interesting things going on right now that are entirely contrary to that.

The first is a friend who was a virgin until a few months ago. It was something he didn't like about himself, along with the fact that he's always been terrified of approaching girls. It had become somewhat of a downward spiral: the longer he remained a virgin, the more intimidated he was by girls, but by not being able to talk to girls he was prolonging his virginity. So after much discussion during which I ceased to be "a girl" and became instead a trusted confidant, it was decided that I would teach him both about girls and about sex. This has, by necessity, thrust me into a much more dominant role than I am accustomed to. Despite his comfort level with me as a person, he is still painfully aware of the disparity in our levels of experience, and so almost always defers to me. I am working on breaking him of that habit, but it's been slow going.

Coming right on the heels of that situation is one with another friend that is almost the exact opposite. This friend has experience far greater than my own and has pretty much always played the dominant role. Despite being close friends and knowing him quite well, I have always found him slightly intimidating. About a month ago he came to me with an interesting request - he wanted to be my bitch. Always one to be open to trying new things, he felt he'd become complacent about his role in the bedroom and decided it was time for a grand experiment. I have no idea what it was that made him come to me with it. He knows plenty of girls who are far more aggressive than I. It's possible that that is the reason, that as long as he's going to try something that is the opposite of his experience he should take along someone who would be doing the same. Regardless, I find that it has been going quite well.

So, it seems I've discovered a whole new facet to myself that I never knew existed. It has pushed me out of my comfort zone in a way that I think is very good for me. Which is why I moved away from home in the first place - to explore myself, to test the boundaries of what I am capable of. And hopefully it will also generate some interesting stories for you all.

Just as soon as I have time to write them down.